Prolific Writing

If there was one thing I would do differently in my life, it would be that I was more outgoing! I was and still am the shy one that everybody's met before, nothing about me has changed. Even now in college, I had the chance to break out of my shell but I couldn't. I felt awkward trying to talk to random people I've never met or seen in my life before. I always feel like they're going to shoot me down or judge me like so many times before in my past. Before I even attempt to start up a conversation, my mind thinks too much and I always back down from it. This is the reason why I only can count my best friends on my one hand.

The first few days I came here, I met a group of girls and we hung out every day that week.. and then they kicked me out of their "clique". They're all still friends and see each other everyday and are closer than ever before, minus me. Ever since then I couldn't seem to manage to have somebody enjoy hanging out with me. I don't even talk to my room mate really, since she's from Taiwan. So far I felt that my college experience isn't what everybody has made it out to be. Since August everything has honestly been going down hill for me, I have the worst luck ever. I go home every weekend because it's too hard being far from everybody I know and love. At least when I am back in Jersey I have people to hangout with every time I am home that get my mind off of things, until I have to leave to come back on Sundays and that's when I realize I have to go through the same routine for yet another week. I am counting down the days until I am home bound for good.

It's not that Marywood's not a great school, because it is! I wish that it was closer to my home in South Jersey and I would love going there everyday. I also don't want people to think I am going to be dropping out of college.. I am only transferring! I am determined to be the first person to graduate college on my mom's side of the family! That is my only motivation as of right now.