The Cause of Anger

Amanda i want to tell you that i love you. and not just that kiddie love or that yeah we are close friends love. i love you like well i dont really know how to describe it but i love you so much that when ever i am around you i get chills and it seems to only happen around you. and when i look at you my heart just acts weird i dont know what to say and i can never stop from smiling at all. like whenever we are standing together at church as weird a it seems that is always the highlight of my week and i would not trade any of those moments for the world. i dont know at all if you feel that way but i do amanda and i feel like i just need to tell you. because i feel if i dont get this out you will never know how i truly feel about you. I got so jealous when i saw you were dating that guy from your school haha its ridiclous i didnt think it would bother me but it did and no that i am typing these emotions down it kind of bothers me now too because i feel that me and you could be so more than you and him could be.... damn that sounds like a douche thing to say :/ im sorry i said that but i had to be said. not a day goes by that im not thinking about you or that i wish that we were together. if i got one chance to be with you i would take it. and it does not matter to me that when you start to get close to someone you push them away i can handle it i will push through it "we" will get through it damn i feel like i sound like a creep. Amanda i love you with all of my heart i can love no other girl the same way i love you none has been there for me in my darkest times like you have and you still see me the same way. and i know i have a girlfriend and it kills me that im tryping this and im in a relationship but you need to know and i need to let this go because i cant honestly see myself with anyone but you