Child and an Independent

People have to find themselves when they grow up, and it can cost a lot of frustrations. There are so many things you have to think about and take care of when you stand on the line between being a child and an independent adult person. You have to learn to take responsibility for yourself and that can be one of the hardest parts - that's when you disappoint yourself and the people around you the most because you don't always see how important something really is. Sometimes you don't even know what you feel, and that's why you see how tempting it is to choose the easy way, where you just live your life and pretend that you don't have to worry about anything, and keep locking your bad conscience out of your head and just do what you exactly feel to do in the moment. The story "A gap of sky" written by Anna Hope (2008) is about a character named Ellie who is nineteen years old and has come to a place in her life where she has to find herself and be a sensible person and take responsibility.

Ellie is the main character in the short story. She's nineteen years old, and a wild girl, living the wild life with several kinds of drugs, parties and alcohol in London. We are introduced to her when she wakes up in her room on a Monday after a wild night going out, which alludes that she's been going out on a Sunday which is an unusually day to go party. She doesn't care much about school and it seems like she really doesn't want go there, and she's only doing it because her parents forced her to do it ("To mom, to dad, not them especially not them, it was their fault she was doing this bloody course in the first place" p.2,l.65). She has gotten a warning from the school because she missed too many classes and things like that. Therefore it's very important that she hands in her essay which is due for the next day. She decides to start writing the essay but realizes that she needs ink for the printer. She goes out in the city to find the ink. She is easy to distract, and her thoughts is rolling in her head. When she has been going for a while she gets distracted by a black leather glove (with the middle finger raised), Ellie takes this as a symbol to "fuck" the authority and her mind starts spinning, wondering why she even goes to school. ("The glove was a sign, for sure it was a sign; she was nineteen, and in London, and she needed to get some printer ink before the shop closed, and she should write an essay, but really, she was free" p.2,l.68). Later she sees a gap in the sky and she gets a feeling she never felt before. She starts to run, and then she suddenly feels better again, she goes into a shop where she picks up a little stone , the stone gives her reflections to her mother because her mother gave her a stone before Ellie moved away to start in school. She takes the stone as a symbol of her mother and she realizes that she didn't