Shattered Heart

i met this guy who captured my heart so easily the first time i saw him but i just kept it with myself. until he ask my number and we exchange text messages. i was happy that time that i cant barely eat because of the happiness i felt whenever he sent a message, when i see him and he often give me phone calls which makes me flatters so much. until we've been together one night coz i ask him to send me home for it was already late at night and idont want to go home alone. i was attending a formal dinner that night. so he get me from school but we didn't go home directly. i ask him if its ok with him to go out just for a while with my classmates and he agree. after the night out, he sent me home. we're having a chit-chat while he was driving the cab and i was enjoying being him as my company. when we almost reach our house, i was wondering why he turn off the engine of the cab. then there is silence between us and i feel eerie that time. then he broke the silence as he starts another conversation. we ask and tell about our lives. until words came out from his mouth that makes my heart stops beating for a while. i was speechless and then i gave a him a smile. and he kissed my lips, slowly and gently. that kiss was passionate but seductive. but it didn't last for so long. i guess, that's when our relationship started. it happened last 26th day, in the month of March, around 1:00 am. the next night we go out for a dinner date and we've been together, going out sometimes and also we often see each other, we communicate through sending text messages. and there was a time when he refuses to go out with me, and he reason out that he don't have a budget for the expenses so i understand him. that was also the time he starts his OJT at Bohol Plaza Hotel. starting that day, i can barely seen him, no text messages from him, no phone calls.. worst, he change his status from in a relationship to single. i was hurt that i cant explain the hurt i felt. for that, i was trying to end my life but unfortunately it was unsuccesful. i cut my wrist many times but it didnt end my life. i was depressed knowing i was still alive.i was wondering what i did wrong that makes him different from the day i met him? he's now a total stranger to me now. he cant even tell that he loves me. i doubt if he still think of me. we always argue and he would never say sorry. he says i was just so childish, am i? i was trying to be the best girlfriend to him, someone whom he can proud of. but i can feel he's not proud having me as his girlfriend. we've been lovers for just almost 2months but i can already feel his cold treatment towards me. does he love me? do i need to fight for this love?