Reflection of Me

Reflection of me.

Growing up it was always evident that I was the

odd one out of our little group. I suppose that isn't

hard when you are just beginning and they are

starting their own families. My sisters and I was

never close but I did have my brother. He was only

five years older than me so he related better to me

then the other three. Everyone always picked on me

because they felt mom was more lenient on me, but

not my brother he was my best friend. Until I became

a teenager and he got a job a one of the local burger

shops. we were still close but not like we was. since

he was working most of the time I had plenty of time

to start hanging out with boys and dating a lot more.

That's when I got myself in trouble with one of my

friends brother's. He was much older then me and we

was all talking about sex and he thought it was his job

to "show me" what it was like. I have never been so

scared in all my life. That's when I changed from a

innocent, curious girl to the social deviant I would

become.

I never told anyone what happened to me that day

maybe if I had my life would be so different. I started

acting out alot. I was using drugs, drinking alcohol,

and having relations with different guys and never

talking to them again. I figured I could hurt them and

make my pain go away but it never did. I continued

being this way for several years until that faithful day

that would really change me forever. "The struggle to

bounce back and recover from setbacks can lead to

developing strengths and abilities that you didn't

know were possible."Siebert

It was my senior year in highschool when some

man's greed was to take my brother from me forever.