I and Music

I love music; I like all kinds except country. I can't stand country music. I hate it with a burning passion. I listen to whatever my mood feels like. I used to listen to love songs when I was in love, now I don't listen to it because I lost someone I loved and I am not sure if we are even going to be together anymore. Even though I am fighting for him and I never fought for love before. I have committed four mistakes in that relationship. He thinks I am a liar. He doesn't want me to talk to this specific guy. I think that's controlling and being obsessive. I don't think he doesn't have the right to do that to me. I still will talk to the guy because he is a good friend. He helped me when I fell apart and when my heart was shattered. Even though its shattered. My heart can't ever be fixed because my true love was the key to it. I miss him so much its killing me in the inside. I sent him this video this morning that made him cry. I don't know to say anymore to fight for him because I said everything I wanted to say but he wants me to go to Puerto Rico with him and have a life with him. I really would do anything to just get back to him. He told me on the phone I don't deserve you and that hurt me like a knife has just stabbed me. I really want him back.