Getting to the End

Getting to the end

Getting stuck

We have all tried feeling stuck at some point in our lives. Whether it's lack of inspiration, passion or creativity; the feeling of your efforts being pointless can bring any man to a complete stop.

The necessity to look ahead, renders the world unmanageable to many, but having the courage to take a break and look back, can provide you with memories of the true values in life.

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William is a middle ages biography writer. His writings focus on young and alive teenage pop-singers. In opposition to these girls stands William himself, who is as dead as a person with a pulls can be, being impassionate about his profession, his marriage and his life in general. Furthermore he is left with a feeling of pointlessness in his writings of indifferent estrogen-bombs having their five minutes of fame. In an attempt to focus on this factual writing, he shelters himself from all sources of inspiration, creativity and passion - Nature and his marriage.

This emotionless state suddenly defines him, until inspiration strikes from the memory of a stuffed animal, and he finds the courage to live and explore, to commit and to love.

Williams's isolated and stationary existence leaves him disappointed and without hope, due to his own incapability. It could seem that this is only further illuminated by a midlife crisis.

His sense of powerlessness renders him impotent, sterile and with a feeling of castration - which is ironic, because William and his wife finds themselves unsuccessful, in their attempts to make a baby. Still, it is only logical that a dead man, in a dead marriage will never be able to create life within a woman.

His neglect for his own basic needs, such as creativity and recognition of his writings, paves way for this mindless, purposeless, factual nonsense, that no one will ever remember him for.

With the purpose of hiding this horrible truth from himself, he now firmly believes that it is better to be impassionate about his work, because then he don't have to leave out things he wanted to say. "the slim volumes reflected the slim lives of his subjects, and his slim interest in them.-(Line 28)

He describes all of this subcontinent misery, as a sensation of something actually physically pressing down on his mind. As if the magnitude of the combined substance of misery could represent an actual, measurable weight.

One day sitting at home frustrated by his writers block, his wife calls him on the phone. She is heading home with the purpose of making a baby. In the meantime, William thinks back to a similar episode. He remembers how he waited for his mom to come home and give him a present. He remembers the excitement. He remembers how he received a blue elephant, blue like water, the very essence of life, symbolizing